Tuesday, October 18, 2005
so good as for now. hmm; woke up at around 8plus and left for school. eventually im late. lol.. after meeting went to j8 lunching with lao po. and then to yl house. teeheehee. anyway; things got slightly better for me now. and i hope it will stay like this. so PLS dont ruin it can?? hais. im just god damn sorry to you(youknowwhoyouare). i just dont wanna bring any trouble to you anymore. and i hope one day you will come telling me youve found a better person. which is when im happy for you boy. oh well, i admit im selfish and all. but we cant go back to the past. like what deb says, there are some things you wish to have but you cant have it. which is somehow true though. sigh. i dont know what will become of me when i see myself walking away from this happiness that we used to have. regretting now is just too late. if THAT didn happen previously; me & you wouldnt be feeling this way now. its so pain & remorseful being in this present situation. you & i know this clearly. and i doubt we both can find situations out of this. can anyone just come to me, hug me tight and tell me what i should do?? let my tears flow down freely & let me scream my agony out. i love lao po bao bei & darling, they have been there for me. thanks to you people. <3 closed my eyes when i was sleeping; but was awaken by a nightmare.
let's make love, in th closet;
7:37 AM;
